Moving from Integrity and Inspiration vs. Reacting and Proving
This week, life threw me a couple of curveballs to say the least. Struggles that I had experienced years ago resurfaced, but instead of reverting to my old self and reacting or trying to prove myself, I leaned into my integrity owned my power and asked for help when I needed it (Something I would never have done before!) This week was a powerful lesson in trust, surrender, and allowing life to flow. - The current astrology at the moment amplified this massively Venus and mercury retrograde plus and eclipse portal in the year of the snake! Death and rebirth shedding of the old, its quite literally what I experienced!
Closing the Door with Grace
This week I auditioned for something I didn’t truly want, but it was something the younger me would have loved and so that is why I put myself forward, I felt maybe there is a chance for both realities to exist at once. But I am not that version of me anymore, so guess what? I didn’t get it. The old me would have felt the need to prove myself to push harder, seek validation, questioning what I could have done better. But the embodied, aligned me now saw it for what it was: a closed door I had already been ready to walk away from.
In that moment, I affirmed that I no longer need to chase opportunities that correlate to my past as they don’t align with me now. I trust that when I act from alignment rather than proving energy, the right doors open effortlessly. But, I do want to highlight this is an uncomfortable space, to not bend or hold but to stay true to who you have become and are becoming. For me its the only option and I accept it, I understand I go first so I can show you how its done!
The Car Breakdown That Didn’t Break Me
Wednesday, whilst traveling down to Brighton for the Soul Speaks event, where I was MCing the next day, my car broke down. The engine started to overheat and so I had to keep stopping and waiting for the car to cool down. What should have been a 90-minute journey took four hours. In the past, this would have triggered a survival mode response in me, a frantic scramble to do all the things, to fix, control, and push my way through. But the embodied me paused and asked: Who can help me?
Instead of spiraling into stress, I leaned into my feminine energy allowing myself to receive support. My masculine energy then came in to create a plan that didn’t require me to shoulder the burden alone. Help showed up in all forms: advice, patience, lifts, and consideration. Most importantly, I felt held throughout the entire situation.
Regulating My Nervous System
Rather than masking over the discomfort, I spoke about it. I accepted the support available to me and cultivated internal safety through my practices. I have a tool kit now that I didnt have access to before. I was able to affirm to myself that I was safe and lean into a deeper sense of trust. A pure example of this growth is I slept through the night. Something I would struggle with being away from home. By staying present and grounded, I navigated the challenge with grace.
Even down to what I wore for the event originally, I had planned a flamboyant outfit (as I usually do), but it no longer felt aligned. I told Stacey, “This would be a mask for how I’m feeling.” Instead, I chose authenticity, showing up fully as myself. By leading with integrity and vulnerability, I helped co-create a powerful, transformative space for the women attending. And because I was open, I was also able to receive the love in the room, this filled my cup up allowing me to move even more so from love instead of fear.
Ease and Alignment Over Struggle
By staying in alignment, everything unfolded with ease. I only waited 45 minutes for a breakdown service. Instead of paying £400, I was towed home for just £12 (something they apparently never offer without prior cover). My car is now in the garage, and I have a courtesy car. It may not be my Mercedes, but I’m grateful nonetheless!
I share this because I didn’t do it all on my own. I was brave enough to ask for help and even braver to accept it. So many women, especially leaders and business owners, still operate in their masculine, wearing strong independent woman as a badge of honor. And yes, you are strong, but true strength is also knowing when to receive.
You deserve to be held.
You deserve for it to be easy.
You deserve to receive.
Mastery in Holding My Power
This week also brought another moment where my ego could have been triggered. I could have slipped into proving energy, justifying myself, or reacting emotionally. But I didn’t. I stood in my power, unwavering. No need to defend. No need to prove. Just knowing my worth. This is true self-mastery.
Why This Work is Essential
This is why the inner work never stops. Every time you choose integrity over reaction, inspiration over proving, and softness over struggle, you reclaim more of your power. You cultivate deep-rooted success that isn't just external but felt in every part of your being.
So, let me ask you:
1. Where in your life are you still trying to prove yourself rather than standing in your worth?
2. How often do you allow yourself to receive support instead of taking everything on alone?
3. What would shift if you led from inspiration rather than reacting to circumstances?
If these questions stir something inside you, it’s time to rise.
Rise is my 1:1 journey for high-achieving women who are ready to embody their next level of leadership: deeply rooted, unapologetically powerful, and led by ease rather than struggle. If you’re ready to create success from a place of true inner alignment, my DMs are open.
Life isn’t always easy, but there are easier ways to move through it. From someone who has endured decades of struggle, I can show you how to lead with softness, to receive to live in the overflow.
Love and Light,