Risk taking and Integrating
Hello! To be honest I didn’t really know what to write. I’ve been heavily in my feminine energy these past few day which, honestly I really needed.
The past few weeks have been full on with my event plus my teaching work and 1:1 clients. Which I love, but equally I do need to add more rest into my diary! Luckily the universe always intervenes at the right moment and has freed me up some space! - Well guided me to!
There was a time in my life where I would ignore my intuition, I would bypass it in order to achieve more or to work harder! Now I pride myself in my deep understanding of myself, I have spent the past 4 years diving deep into my subconscious patterns. I can hand on heart say I know who I am 100% and from that knowing, I can decipher what would be the best choice for me to make. However, there is always a risk involved especially when it comes to doing something differently and breaking out of my comfort zone.
Some of you may know that I have taught at Pineapple Dance Studios in London for the past 2 years. I have loved every part of teaching their but I’ve known for a while that my time was coming to an end. It was my last toe in the door of being a professional dancer and so I was clinging on as long as I could, but last week, I felt that the time had come. Now, naturally I felt a small element of fear, travelling to London each week, as well as taking time out to choreograph has been a part of my routine for years, to change that is strange, let alone the financial side of it. But, as always, I know no risk no reward.
I share all of this with you to show you that I really am walking the walk and yes things feel uncomfortable but without taking the risks and making changes, nothing changes!
So, with that decision made and a new space being created in my life my mind instantly wanted to fill it with the next thing, but, from creating these changes in my life over the years I knew I needed to allow time and space to integrate.
The way I see it is everything happens for a reason. Moments of pause allow us to see how far we’ve come and also to reassess where it is we want to go. Prior to ‘doing the work’ I spent my life tunnel vision in moving forward at 100mph. I didn’t pause or rest I just kept going to the point of exhaustion and failure, that was a pattern of mine. Work really hard, have a big trip travelling and then repeat. It wasn’t healthy, there was no balance and no feminine energy. Even now allowing myself to be still, at times feels alien. I do allow myself to be in it and not fight it or justify it but part of me does feel like I should be doing more, this is because I spent so much of my life in my masculine energy - toxically too may I add!
As I always say life is about balance, we are not supposed to stay in either masculine or feminine energy for too long, we are supposed to swing between the two and they are both supposed to work together as I have mentioned plenty of times. We can even use the example of these two energies within the context of risk and integration. Taking the risk would be the masculine, as it involves ‘doing’ and the integration would be the feminine as its the surrender and trust in that the next stage will unfold. What I will say is, you don’t need to have all the details figured out but what you do need to know is how you would like to feel in this next stage. If you haven’t already take my higher self visualisation as that will help you see where you want to get too. - When you don’t know what you want the universe doesn’t know what to send you!
I’m saying all of this to say, if you don’t take the risk you wont reap the rewards and whilst your waiting for the next thing to come in surrender control. The universe is always listening.
A great way to support yourself in this is to get clear on how you want to feel, identify your strengths and weaknesses, look into what opportunities you have to grow or expand. All of that work will support the universe in bringing you closer to where you want to be.
If you do feel particularly in limbo and not sure how to move forward please do drop me a DM. This is all of my work and I can guide you out of the darkness and into your light.
I also have empowerment tools you can find here.
Love and light x